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I finally got a call from the hospital and my outpatient psych program starts on May 15! *puts on party hat* I'm really excited and a little bit anxious. But I'm sure it's going to be really good for my mental health. I'm excited to see what kinds of ERP they're going to have me do, if any at all. I'm also looking forward to group therapy again, it's been a while since I've had that & I've always found it really helpful.

The semester has started again & Swedish class is being super fun! This week we read Förrättningen (The Official Act)* by Håkan Nesser, a short story about a son who is about to meet his imprisoned father for the first time. It was so amazing that I'm on the hunt for more things by Nesser to read. Last week I had some pretty intense social anxiety about attending class, but this week felt much better in that regard.

* This title is an absolute bitch to translate. Google Translate offered me "The Function," which, yeah, okay, but also no? Lol. The Official Act is the best I can do. xD

My MCU feels are still going strong. I have started another Wintershock (Bucky/Darcy) fanfic where they go undercover as a couple at a beach resort. I've always, always wanted to write fake relationship stuff & this is a wonderful opportunity! There will be pining and not-really-unrequited feelings and lots of UST. I'm very excited for it & compiling a soundtrack on Spotify! Roll Over Beethoven by Chuck Berry is on it because at some point there will be dancing.

I have been rereading some of my old favorite Steve/Tony and Steve/Bucky fanfics. Steve/Bucky is my MCU movieverse ship, and Steve/Tony is comicverse canon for me; I tried to ship them in the movies but there's just too much animosity for me, I think. (I do like enemies to lovers, but only if it's done in a really specific way that's hard to put into words.) I remember ye olden days of LJ when I hung out at [livejournal.com profile] ship_manifesto & cried actual tears over the amazingly well-written comicverse!Steve/Tony post there. Those were the days!

Oddly enough, I have never really felt the urge to write Steve/Tony fic myself. Maybe because I haven't read the comics. Steve/Bucky, on the other hand, I really want to try some time. I have some questionable post-CATWS ideas that mostly ignore CACW.

Omg my roommate is eating ice cream out of a bowl on their lap and just
Me: For a second it looked like you were pulling a spoon out of your crotch. From this angle I can't see the bowl.
Roommate: Prison wallet.
derry: (dinosaurs exploding)
So, it's 2024! Wow! My first association with this number is "I dropped out of uni 10 years ago." Go figure.

• Life has been somewhat stressful lately, but overall I'm doing well. I am taking my second advanced Swedish class, the better to converse with my godmother, and it's a lot of fun and a lot of work. The final exam is some time at the end of January. I've started studying and so far the work load seems manageable. Currently, I'm on winter break. My next class is next Wednesday. I'm very excited to have some time off.

• I have acquired a horrible ship (Mohg/Miquella from Elden Ring, I blame the canonical half-sibling incest on George R. R. Martin's writing) and my roommate and I are writing an RP! This is the first time since high school that I've RPed, and it's exciting and somewhat new. I also tried to play the game again, with mixed results. Fromsoft games are perhaps not entirely my cup of tea, although I do love watching others play them. My main take-away from watching Jacksepticeye's series is that bleed builds are ridiculous and fun.

• The anniversary of my father's death is coming up this Sunday, and I think I might spend the day watching winter sports--he loved skiing of all kinds--and knitting, and lighting a candle for him, and perhaps calling my mom. It's going to be very cozy.

• Some time this year, I will attend a local outpatient program of intensive psychotherapy. I do not know exactly when yet, but hopefully I'll find out soon (the wait list is ridiculously long). I'm a bit wary of the stress of having to leave the house every day and be somewhere that's not at home every day, but I also feel optimistic. Perhaps this will help me get my feet under me a bit more.

• In other OCD-related news, I HAVE CUT & HANDLED RAW CHICKEN TWICE in the past week. Twice! And once with my BARE HANDS and while, yes, I did wash my hands afterwards, I didn't wash them obsessively, and I didn't douse the entire kitchen in disinfecting spray. \o/ I am ridiculously proud of myself for this. The resulting food ended up being delicious too. I've had a definite uptick of intrusive thoughts and fears over this, but so far, I've been able to handle it. And the sheer VICTORY of eating chicken that I HELPED PREPARE has got me really excited to try more chicken-related recipes.

That is all for now! Thank you for reading. I've missed blogging, and really want to get back into it. And yes, I know I say that all the time. xD

❆ o1.

Jan. 2nd, 2021 12:26 pm
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*attempts to revive mostly-abandoned blog for the 65th time*

Anyway, here's the Snowflake Challenge Day 1 - In your own space, introduce yourself!

HEWWO. )

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